So much has happened

I can’t decide whether to start at the end which would be what is happening now Or to go back to the beginning. Hmm. I think I will stick with now, because truthfully I may forget where I am.

Do all of you or any of you know what Neuropsychologists do? I met with mine online where we spoke and could see each other. He asked me questions about when my memory or problems started. August 3rd.

I took him through some of what I remembered. However periodically, I’d stop at the end and I could remember something else ten years before whatever I spoke about.

Story One

I can go back at least twenty some years. Towards the end of my dissertation, I found I was having trouble remembering things about had done for more than 8 years. My husband Bruce and I had two Goldens. We were living on Jane Street in the West Village of Manhattan. (For those of you who don’t know where this is, our apartment looked at the Hudson River!).

I found at times I couldn’t remember how to put the gentle leaders on our dogs. I told Bruce to do it. He asked why and I mumbled something like I need to go to the bathroom, when truthfully I couldn’t do it.

At the time I thought this was strange. A friend said “Tommy your mind is filled with writing up the stats for your paper!” I didn’t think that was it but I let it go.

Story Two

About a month after this, I went to go from Marymount Manhattan College where I taught to NYU where I was going to teach later in the evening. I took the same route twice a week and had done this for more than four years!

I got off at NYU but I suddenly didn’t know where I was Nor Why I was there.

Note, I now I have Alzheimer’s but I am 74. I was only early 50’s then. Why was this happening?

I got tired of people telling me that I was tired and did too much. Sigh.

My neuropsychologist listened and asked questions. I took him through as many incidents as possible. But later I could remember several times I had trouble ten years before the ones above.

Alzheimer’s or such can happen years before we actually know it. (Find quote or link).

August 7, 2026

After our meeting I somehow fell like I was in Alice in Wonderland or whatever and had fallen in a hole. Kathy (she works for and with me ) and I noticed I was forgetting more more. I hadn’t had all my tests and I wasn’t yet on medicine.

Every time I would say I don’t remember I was so tired of it. And I was scared and mad and more.